in Vedic religion, Varuna (Sanskrit Varuṇa वरुण, Malay: Baruna) or Waruna is a god of the sky, of water and of the celestial ocean, as well as a god of law and of the underworld. He is the most prominent Asura (a group of power-seeking deities) in the Rigveda (an ancient Indian sacred collection of Vedic Sanskrit hymns), and lord of the heavens and the earth. In Hindu mythology, Varuna continued to be considered the god of all forms of the water element, particularly the oceans.
used to be incredibly relevant
I laughed tonight.
It’s a strange concept, realizing it’s no longer a common thing for me to actually have laughed. Really laughed, out loud, for more than a few seconds.
I actually, entirely enjoyed myself.
Despite still being a little sick, despite being tired, despite the rush and potential tension when we left — nothing went wrong. Even the crowded bus ride was nice — despite seeing the very person I just found out was pregnant — and everything went smoothly. No one made fun of me. It didn’t break the bank even though I paid for both myself and him. R. was sweet and kind and affectionate and stayed close the entire time.
Very close. Very sweet. Lots of hugs.
And I laughed so much. During the car ride there, during dinner, the gift shop visit, the ride back.
I didn’t know it felt so good to laugh, really.
I guess it’s been a while.
— Myla Goldberg, Bee Season (larmoyante)
We fought again today. Not terribly bad — just an argument, really. The same argument as ever.
But it got me low enough. I finally told him my fear.
And I think, I even hope, that this time it sunk in, the seriousness. The way he acted afterward. His promise to try harder, for me, for us. The look on his face.
God, I hope it was enough.
Because I couldn’t bear it if it became reality.
God I miss him.
Soon soon soon soon soon…